It’s ok to ask God why questions. He doesn’t always answer them this side of heaven but when we get there we will have all the answers.
I met D in church. He helped with the youth projects at church, we worshipped together, prayed together. I had finally found the right person for me. After eighteen months, we got married and life seemed fine. Both working, earning good salaries, going on at least two holidays a year. Yes, life was fine until an adoption process went horribly wrong resulting in the slow degeneration of our marriage.
I’ve question myself many times. Whether that was the right thing for us to do. I have asked God why over and over with no real answers.
God in His wisdom sometimes do not answer us for our own good. My consolation is that one day I will find out why things happened as they did.